Busy People, Goin' Nowhere

so tired

2007-07-27T07:36:54Z

Of being bored.
Of going nowhere.
Of feeling useless.

And I am really tired of fake friends :/.

jaceorwhatever @ 2007-07-07T14:14:00

2007-07-07T18:15:11Z

Wow. Transformers blew my mind. go see it, please! It was very good and very well done!

jaceorwhatever @ 2007-07-06T18:46:00

2007-07-06T22:47:32Z

I feel so goddamn miserable. All the time. Damn it all.

jaceorwhatever @ 2007-06-20T03:46:00

2007-06-20T07:48:12Z

I wish I can turn back time sometimes, or a least just change a few things I have done.

I know I can't change things, but maybe its worth it to give things a second go round? I mean, who knows. I'm older, wiser, paler.

Eh, I think I should sleep.

jaceorwhatever @ 2007-06-15T14:12:00

2007-06-15T18:30:31Z

I almost forgot about this here thing.

Anyways, i'm alrightI suppose. Health wise it seems my body isis doing a myriad of things to always keep me paranoid and thinking I am dying.

Emotionally, I guess I am level. I feel great, I just feel lonely as per the usual with me. Its really just my nature I suppose.

I always am bored lately. I really dont do much of anything. I cant afford a car until I find a second job, so my options are either to: Sit around and do nothing OR Take like 3 busses to get somewhere to hang out with people.

It would probably be better if i had a phone, but once again I ain't getting paid enough.

Yes, I know I can call people, but most of the time I forget peoples numbers and or aren't near a phone.

I really need to find a second job that would hire me. Since the hours at the shop have been toned back,and I am helping watching Jess for Devon and Christina, I have been getting not so much in the money department. Also, Im bored as fuck when I am not working. I need to feel active.

I think this apathetic life I lead is kinda why I always think about how I am either dying cause somepart of my body hurst or I am a lonely guy who is too socially awkward to get a girl remotely interested in me.

Enough with the moping and drudgery though. In lighter news, I play too much fucking Pokemon. Yes, the game you may have played when you were 10, Im playing at 21! Regardless, i love it to death and it is so much awesome condensed into a little cartridge. I also have been YEARNING to play WoW again, but my finances are keeping this at bay.

I lost a lot of weight I suppose. I'm down to about 165~ which is kinda weird. I don't know how I lost though 20 pounds really. Maybe its a PARASITE EATING MY FLESH or maybe it was my terrible barely eating habit I had for awhile.

On a final note to all the ladies out there. I am the man of your dreams and you don't know it ok.

Thanks for reading my incoherent rant. I'll post more often now that I residiscovered this.

HALP.

2006-11-30T03:46:18Z

I am in some dire straights and really need a favor.

I need a place to crash at for 5-7 days while I get my room redone at my sisters. I cannot stay there, and I had a falling out with my parents making me unable to stay there at the moment. So if anyone can get back to me that would be great, just post a comment or hit me at my myspace. I appreciate any help I can get.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-09-09T02:35:00

2006-09-09T06:38:29Z

So I havent done this in awhile.

Im miving back home, yippee! For ease of going to school and finding a new job to get back on my feet.

Im playing a lot of WoW since I have no life. It is a lot of fun killing mans.

I have really long hair now. I should get a haircut, but I really dont feel like it and its looking good.

I am lonely, but not sad. I just know that Im a loner guy, and thats just me. I deal with it.

I really want to play Poker in a live setting. I havent done it in a long time and I crave it.

last but not least I need a ride to gamestop cause I want to trade in some games >.> =)

Love you guys and just thought I would check in.

Jason.

P.S. Leave me tons of comments. Also I turned 21 for those who didnt know so shower me with comments about how bad you feel.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-05-31T14:15:00

2006-05-31T18:17:54Z

http://gh.ffshrine.org?r=12468

If you havent already lciked this link I have posted on my myspace, then please take the opportunity to do it now. This will be a help to be into getting video game music like the nerd I am without a lot of hassle and effort. I only need 8 more people to link it from 8 different IPs so please do it, or tell a freind to do so. You dont have to do anything but copy paste into your browser and boom.

Also, finishing up my room back home. Its annoying. After I pay the bills this weekend for my part of the money at Bobs, I will not have money for internet at my hourse (moms) for a few weeks, but I think I can deal. Anyways, Id appreciate any help in this matter also I love you all.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-05-11T03:04:00

2006-05-11T07:06:15Z

http://revolution.ign.com/articles/707/707504p1.html

I dont know how I can maintain an erection until 2007.

SOLID FUCKING SNAKE

METAKNIGHT.

What. In. The. Fuck.

This is the best video gaming news ever.

Also, the king of video game music is doing the WHOLE soundtrack.

Nobuo Umeatsu.

THIS IS A DREAM.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-04-07T15:43:00

2006-04-07T19:44:20Z

Hmmm....all is well. Just wanted to say that so no one thought I was dead or something, because obviously Im not. Also, I need a shave and could use a cheeseburger. That is all.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-03-28T17:06:00

2006-03-28T22:07:41Z

http://www.kotaku.com/gaming/michael-jackson/michael-jacksons-music-hidden-in-sonic-3-163160.php

Um, holy shit thats creepy.

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-03-02T03:18:00

2006-03-02T08:20:28Z

I feel great. I really do. That is all.

P.S. My Shaman hit 44 today, that is one reason.!! He Frost Shocks a lot and Pallies hate it el oh el. And any shock, they just have e-penis envy XD.

P.S.S Mr Blue Sky- Electric Light Orechestra. best Song ever!

jaceorwhatever @ 2006-02-10T12:27:00

2006-02-10T17:44:41Z

So things are going great. No real complainst at the moment here. I mean, im doin fine. Im working a lot more than I used to. I also am playing WoW a lot more than I used to. although I shouldnt, but seriosuly, during the week when there is nothing to do, what can I do. Be bored? NAW. There are games to be played!

Also, in other news. I have put a hiatus (TEMPORARILY) in my schooling, deciding where I will be attending next year. I have had a bunch of problems with financial aid, and I dont have money for the classes right now anyways, so I have decided to stop. UNTIL NEXT SEMESTER AT WHEREVER I CHOOSE TO GO. Now, I thought this through before i did it. I have applied for many different scholarships, dependent on ethnicity and wealth. I also will be looking into scholarships I can get through volunteering, extracurricular activities. So, when i decide where I will be going, i will know that I will have the cash and funds neescary to attend, and not have to worry about the many trials and tribulations of finanical aid.

THE ONE THING YOU FUCKERS BETTR NOT COMMENT ON IS MY DECISION TO DO THIS> I WILL BE GOING BACK TO SCHOOL WHEN THE NEXT SEMESTER ROLLS AROUND, AND IF YOU DONT BELIVE ME THEN YOU REALLY ARENT MY FRIEND, AND YOUR OPINION DOESNT MATTER TO ME, SO GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!

Im determined, but I also in limbo with the financial aid people, so I CANT go to school anyways, so let me handle that, and dont tryo to run my life with your thoughts. I know what I am oing. Im not gonna fuck it up. Im gonna do things the way I want to do them, regardless of what other people say. Im sorry if you dont like my decision, just keep it to yourself. For those who dont know, Im MUCH more responsible then I was a few years back, droping outta highschool and doing nothing. I pay my bills, I do my work, I went to school. Just please please trust me, and dont plague my LJ with comments on how stopping going to school for this semester would be terrible, becuase I cant even fucking pay for it anyways.

I love all of you guys, very much. I will be headed to MegaCon with everyone else, but on Saturday of that weekend, i will be working most of the time at the booth my store is running down there, so Ill see ya there.

JAson =).

P.S. Alliance, shut the fuck up about being underpowered. You guys have much more twinkers then I have ever seen in my life. And love love love to gank people who can BARELY give you honor, when they are questing. Grated, I was flagged, but still, a lvl 41 on a 32? Yeah, thats fair. Moreso, if you think shamans are overpowered, you havent played one. Ill tell ya, you are not needed EVER post 50, do to the fact you cant do anything well. Except be "overpowered" and in pvp they are not that great especially concidering the plethora or rogues and hunters that go to town much better then shamans. So, when i go on the WoW forums and see retards ranting, I wanna punch em in the face. Obviously you cannot play your character well enough, and just wanna cry that what little "power" you had was taken away. and think about it, shamans are coming up pretty soon on the pecking order of characters to tweak, and Ill say the same thing to them that I am saying now, deal with it, you reap what you sow.

P.S.S rachel, that was in no way directed at you, you go with your pally self. Im talking about the fat shut in WoW nerds that play all the time living in thier mothers basement, eating pizza by just shoving thier face in it, and typing with thier fat greasy hands about how 1337 they are, but cannot do anything because they got nerfed, they should go bather more and go the fuck outside XD. And what server are you on so I can roll an alliance toon there?

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-12-22T12:21:00

2005-12-22T17:23:53Z

I have no complaints at the moment. All is good. Cept maybe that I need to hang out with more people on a more consistent basis.
Also, I could use a haircut, Im pretty sure my hair is going to absorb my head through osmosis and become a second brain. which would be cool, but also very conflicting. Anyways, happy holidays and may all your Christmases not suck and whatever.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-12-03T23:27:00

2005-12-04T04:27:21Z

I had a nice long taxing day at work. And no no one is home. I cant call anyone, I was told i could call someone so i could hang with everyone, and cant.

I want to cry. Fuck.

Im sorry I am too much of an inconvienece to be picked up or anything, I think Ill be outta here soon anyway, i just cant do anything right nowadays, and I just....I just.....I dont know. I really dont know what to say. i guess the word here is "useless" but i am not. But I just feel like I am discarded. Whatever though, its just the sleep deprivation talking, I just wish i was with friends at the moment. i just dont wanna be alone. Night all yall, Ill be better tomorrow probably. definitely.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-11-16T16:38:00

2005-11-16T21:40:39Z

Things are great. Im happy. And I wish City of Villains would freaking stop being a bitch-man and load up, cause I needed it earlier. I wannted to run AVs and couldnt =(.

Anywhos, off ta work. Ciao kiddies.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-11-06T19:42:00

2005-11-07T00:47:33Z

Im a joke. A lazy bastard. But whatever, whatever.

In other news, CoV is a lot of fun, and considering the game doesnt fucking judge me of how much I work, Im enjoying it very much.

I just needed to say that, I dont care really, I just am stressed out to all hell and when i get yelled at for no fucking apparent reason, it slightly has cause to agaitate you. I know its no reason to bitch, but sometimes you get a little bit on edge and when ya do, things gotta let go.

My fucking boss tells me to go home a LOT. No reason. He says its slow. It never is when he does. Im starting to get angry. I need money to feed the 15,000 people in this house (well 4, but still). I would like to by a new bed. I would also like a desk.

I would laso like some god damned appreciation. Whatever.

I feel a little better now, not take what i say to heart. Lke it matters anyways, right?

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-10-30T21:17:00

2005-10-31T02:18:00Z

Okay whoemever the fuck sent me the virus IM, I fucking am finding you and killing you you godamned fuckwad. thats pretty shitty saying youre my friend and that i know you and was joking with me trying to have me guess who you are, then send me a link whicch I didnt even fucking click, I closed the window and bam my fucking AIM starts spamming out IMS, so NOW my fucking freinds probably think that I am sending them shit like that and its bull shit, its super fucking shitty. Thanks for making me never wanna log on AIM again, cause my friends are pissed at me.

FUCK MAN.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-10-17T03:01:00

2005-10-17T07:02:48Z

Im posting from my computer, my very own new computer! YAY YAY YAY.

Anywho, been working, feeling kinda run down and sicky, butill survive. Im tired and going to bed, just wanted to update you gay gays on me. cell is 485-3000 call it sometime n00bs.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-10-11T22:11:00

2005-10-12T02:10:51Z

The Slow Dancer
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDm)

Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer.

Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you're a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There's also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.

Your exact opposite:
The Hornivore

Random Brutal Sex Master

While you're not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it's HIGHLY likely they're just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor or The Sonnet

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: JaceYourFaceOff

Im going to be fucking alone for ever. Good day.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-10-01T23:15:00

2005-10-02T03:14:57Z

Mna, there is one thing that I cant stand. The Sun.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-10-01T02:31:00

2005-10-01T06:36:16Z

So through out the week I have been playing City Of Heroes (keeps your WoW guys, I like comics>fantasy.). Anyways, Ive been playing a lot, and dumb ass level 50s (max levels) have been doing these gay things called costume conest where, said dickhead rates you costume rates your costume, and then gives you obsence amounts of in game money.

So lately, Ive been exploiting myself to these dumb things, and well, I have been winning tons of money. My level 8 character has enough money to buy a base, but I am skeptical of doing so. SO, the real question is should I do it? None of you know the answer because, you dont play. Like at all, ever.

Anyway, I was just wondering. And I hate work, cause I have to be up in like...5 hours. And I cant sleep. Meh. Im gonna attempt to sleep now.

KTHXBYE

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-09-20T12:50:00

2005-09-20T16:51:59Z

yay, Im excited for today! I write more later, but right now, I have to get ready!!!

P.S. Look at my crazy looking, almost psycho userpic.!!

But hair isnt that color anymore, it was like that for all of like 10 minutes. Now its red, and cool, Ill upload a picture later.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-09-14T11:51:00

2005-09-14T16:09:18Z

You know, life is really funny. One second youre life is seemingly going in one direction, same, monotonous grind that you have been doing for the last forever. It seems like things never change, when you have the same routine. Appaently, this is not the case though. When the are things in your life that happens, that are drastic and well, random....your life can be severely altered, so much in fact that it affects your life in such a way, that it adversely(sp?) affects you and may cause problematic situations that you, the person with the hum-drum, woeless life, is now in a situation that isnt germane you to, and more then likely detremental to your lifestyle and living.

Thats clearly the case with me.

NOT!!1!!!!!!111111!one!

Life cant be going any better for me, I suppose. Although I have less then a week to find a place to live, and can hardly walk without severe pain. All in all, im doing spectacular. For awhile, I was really depressed and didnt want to do anything...like at all. After rehabing for my leg and all that, the limp makes (made) me feel self concious about myself, being the vain bastard that I am. So that kinda kept me ot of the social loop for quite sometime, plus the whole working all the time thing. It definitely didnt help the situation any.

Yesterday was a turning point in all that, and I made the effort to get a hold of Bob. Good job me. That was possibly one of the best things that I have ever done. It feels like we are all like just where we left off, like we didnt miss a beat. I saw Devon (again, already met bak up with him, but love that guy, so I was psyched), Steph, whom I love dearly and was very happy to see again, JT, who, god damn him, is still the finest man on the planet....I mean....Um...it was really cool seeing him again, I really like having him in my life, because of the fun and semi-dumness he bring (Kidding!). I also met Seth, who is Bobs new roomate, he seems like a really cool guy and is a BIG improvemt from past roomates(excluding Duck, hes awesome).

But most importantly, I took a really big step in thr right direction. For so LONG I didnt talk to anyone, get contact with anyone. I made mysekf way to sheltered, when I knew I had people out there who were willing and more then happy to just get over past situations and live in the now, and it took me awhile to realize that is what I should be doing.

In closing, I feel im in a very good place right now, and I think things can only get better with time, and that I wont screw up this time, as per, I cant afford it.

With Love and Thanks,
Jason

P.S. Last time you will read any hints of human emotion on any of my post, cause we al know I lack those facilities. Yeesh.

jaceorwhatever @ 2005-02-14T21:37:00

2005-02-15T02:39:12Z

Anyone trying to contact me...my AIM is broken...it wont work....I got kicked just a few minutes ago...and its being rather lame.

Anyone can help with that it would be great!!!

Happy Valentines Day everyone, Im gonna go be studious now...I have English to tend to.